Greetings,
My story for this week was based upon my short story group's prompt, "Muscle Memory". I am classifying it into the category of "Science Fiction", though the machine in the story isn't much more far fetched than some of the various devices you see in many modern movies or spy films that would not be considered Science Fiction.
I have to thank my morning run for helping me come up with the story. It is kind of interesting how one little idea can end up becoming a full story after an hour on the running trail. Though it is always hard to tell if the story is going to be any good.
Anyway, let me know what you think! I would enjoy the feedback!
Thanks,
James
"Muscle Memory"
by James J Meadows III
The tears in my wife’s eyes nearly caused my heart to break
as I kissed her one last time before leaving the house.
“Don’t
do this, Edward,” she said.
“I’ve
got to, Anne,” I replied. “I need to know. After all these years, I need
answers.”
Answers
were the one thing, above all other things, which had eluded me so far these
last ten years, ever since I was found washed up on the shores of Lake
Pontchartrain with a severe head wound and no knowledge of my previous life.
Even the modern twenty-second century psychological techniques were unable to
restore the memories. Now, however, for the first time, thanks to recent
advances in neuroscience, I finally had a chance to get those answers. I wasn’t
prepared to give it up.
“What
if you don’t like what you find,” my wife pleaded. “What if you discover you
have another wife, another family? What if you forget about us?”
I
reached up to wipe the tears away. We had met a few months after I was found by
the police. I didn’t necessarily believe in love at first sight, yet if such a
thing existed, this was it. While my past was a mystery to me, how I felt for
her and for my family wasn’t.
“Nothing
will change who I am,” I replied. “I will always love you. I will always love
our family. Nothing can ever change that!”
My
daughters seemed on edge too. Though they were only two and four, too young to
understand what was happening, they could sense their mother’s tension, and it
made them uneasy. I knelt down and gave them each a tight hug and kiss, promising
to bring them back some sweets and toys when I got back from the hospital.
Then, with one last kiss to my wife, I headed into the garage, where I climbed
into my car and let it drive me away.
The
throngs of reporters were already waiting for me when I arrived at the clinic.
This didn’t surprise me much. From almost the day of my discovery, the media was
crazy about me: the mystery man, with no identification, no fingerprints, no
one able to identify him and not even capable of remembering his name, only that
it started with an ‘E’. My accomplishments since the day of my discovery had
only added to the media frenzy which often accompanied me.
“Move
back! Move back! Give him room!” Several police officers shouted, fighting to
maintain a path for me as I headed to the facility.
“Thanks
Stephen,” I said to the first officer, as I started past. “How is the family?”
“Doing
well,” he replied, coming to join me, while another officer took his place
fighting off reporters. “How is yours?”
“Nervous,”
I answered.
Stephen
and I were fairly close, thanks to five years spent as partners on the force.
Though he wasn’t my partner anymore, not since his promotion last year, I had
served with him longer than anyone else. My physical fitness, knack for
investigation, skill at tailing and talent for information gathering, none of
which I could explain, made going into the force a natural course of action for
me following my discovery.
Thanks
to my skills, and of course the help of partners like Stephen, I accumulated almost
a dozen awards and honors in the eight years I served. I suppose this only added to the mystique
surrounding my past. Still, it was a mystique which bothered me. Where did I
develop all those skills? What did I use them to accomplish?
None of
the reporters or cops or even my family could understand what it was like to
not have a past, to not remember anything: your parents; childhood friends; or even
your own name. That was why, even though I was happy with my life, I needed to
do this procedure.
“Hello
Edward,” a young woman, in her late twenties, with dark black hair greeted me
as I entered the clinic. “We haven’t met before. I’m Nurse Johnson. I was
brought in from out-of-town, to help operate the machine. I am one of the
designers. Are you ready for your procedure today?”
“Yes,”
I answered, as security teams fought to stop the news crews from flooding
inside.
She led
me down a hall. Stephen, who seemed to be intent upon accompanying me through
the process, followed as we walked.
“Now,
as I’m sure Dr. Burke explained, this is a relatively new procedure,” the nurse
said. “Essentially, as you know, your muscles remember their past actions and
behaviors even if you can’t directly recall them yourself. What we do is
stimulate those muscles. As we do so, synapses in the brain will fire, causing
it to unconsciously recall actions. The devices we will be attaching in your
head will detect the electrical impulses and project them into a visible form
on the screen, essentially reading your unconscious mind.”
“You,
and those of us in the room, will be able to see the images stored in your
brain, associated with the muscle memories as they come up. So far, even though
this has only been performed a few times, we have noticed that once one memory
is collected, the brain begins to regurgitate more and more, connecting them
with the previous. In this way, we should be able to get a pretty good
collection of visions from your past.”
“Excellent,”
I said.
We were
just about to enter the room when the nurse stepped in front of me, placing her
hand against the door.
“Officer
Edward,” she said. “Are you sure you want to go through with this procedure? Remember,
we don’t know what we’re going to find. You’ve done a lot of great things in
your life and I don’t want to risk anything that might wipe them out. Think
about it. With your skills, you could be a foreign spy. You could find yourself
in serious trouble if the truth comes out. Or perhaps you were some other sort
of investigator or researcher, who someone tried to do in because they knew
something they shouldn’t. That information coming to light could endanger you
and your family! There are all sorts of consequences of this procedure which you should consider.”
“Nurse
Johnson,” I said. “Are you attempting to discourage me?”
“All
I’m saying,” she replied. “Is that, as the operator of the machine, I have
watched all four uses of the device to restore memory. I’ve learned that
you can occasionally see things you don’t want to. Sometimes it is best to let
the ghosts of the past stay there.”
“I’m
determined to see this through,” I replied. “There is nothing I cannot deal
with.”
“Very
well,” she said, with a somewhat resigned voice.
Stephen
and I were led into the room, where the doctors started hooking up various pads,
cords, and devices all over my body. At the same time, I was strapped down, to
prevent thrashing or uncontrollable spasms while my muscles were stimulated.
Finally, an IV was placed into my arm, apparently to allow them to administer
any medications necessary throughout the procedure. Once the equipment was
settled, the doctor and nurse informed me that everything was ready and a
monitor was hoisted above my head for me to watch the images they retrieved.
“Last
chance to change your mind,” Nurse Johnson said, giving me a sideways look.
I didn’t even considered the idea.
My determination to know my past, to finally get my memories back, to at last
uncover the missing pieces of my life, and to become a whole person again,
drove me forward.
“You
can begin whenever you are ready,” I replied.
“Very
well,” she said.
The
lights were dimmed. Within seconds, I felt my muscles begin to contract as
though performing various acts. At first these acts were somewhat random. Yet
as time went on, I felt myself performing normal everyday activities which were
a part of my life. Of course, I wasn’t really performing them; I was strapped
to a table. To my muscles, though, it seemed like I was living out my daily routine.
Gradually,
over the course of many more minutes, images took shape on the screen above me.
They were not thoughts I was consciously thinking. Sure enough, as described, they
were images which appeared to be stored in my unconscious, which were
associated with the movements, seen as if I were looking out of my own eyes. I
felt completely lost in the awe of what I was experiencing. I watched myself
kiss my wife, practice with my pistol at the police station gun range, and
exercise at the gym.
At
first, all of the memories were ones I could recall. It wasn’t until my brain
got to the point of crawling out of the river, where I found myself making a
sudden jump to the past. Without warning, I found myself, for the first time,
staring at the faces of my parents, racing through a snow covered valley,
shopping at stores, which listed their currency in Canadian values, taking
martial arts lessons and studying in a modern computerized high schools.
I
watched in awe for what felt like hours, though in truth I knew it was far less
time. It was amazing. At least, until I noticed, something wasn’t quite right.
I saw myself sitting in front of a computer, using my research skills to
uncover information. But the information I was researching was specific women.
I also saw myself using my skill at tailing. And what I was tailing was other young
women.
From
there, things turned even darker. I watched as I burned my fingers with acid to
cover my finger prints and acquired fake ids. I saw myself sneak across the
Canadian border into the US where I went on a rampage, stalking, raping and
murdering one young woman after another, making my way across the country. I
wanted to scream. This couldn’t be true. This couldn’t be happening. This
couldn’t really be me!
All of
the sudden, I saw a familiar face on the screen: a young woman walking the
streets of Baton Rouge with her college friends. I watched as the group broke
off for a bar, while she continued on, apparently heading for their hotel, which
lay along a bridge beside Lake Pontchartrain. I saw her spot me and start to
run. I watched, through my eyes, as I charged after her, pulling a knife out
of my pocket. I was practically on top of her when she turned around with an
expandable night stick in her hands.
I didn’t pull back fast enough.
Clearly, I had grown over confident from years of killing. When she spun
on me, swinging it with all her might, I was not prepared. It struck me hard
across the head. I saw blood spatter everywhere and watched as I stumbled to
the railing of the bridge, not realizing there was an opening with steps
leading down to the water. I fell, tumbling down the steps, smashing my head again.
A moment later, I watched myself roll into the shallow water. Everything went
black.
Long minutes followed as I stared
at the dark screen, feeling my muscles relax when the electrical pulses
stopped. With some effort, I pried my eyes off the television and turned them
toward the woman who I had followed on that fateful night, the one who hit me
with the club as I attempted to kill her, the one who now, ten years later, had
attempted to convince me not to get the procedure done: Nurse Johnson.
“I’m sorry, Officer Edward,” she
said, in a soft quiet voice. “I told you: sometimes it is best to let the
ghosts of the past stay there.”
A long silence filled the room. I
looked toward Stephen, who was still gazing at the screen in stunned horror.
Then, I watched him reach into his pocket and withdraw a pair of handcuffs.
“Officer Edward, I’m sorry, I’m
afraid you are under arrest,” he said. “Doctors, please remove the straps from
him, so I can take him away.”
I had finally regained my memories
and lost everything else.